Isalm obsession

This whole Islam thing is becoming an obsession! The past week or so I have not been to bed before 1 AM (so I have only been getting 5-6 hours of sleep or so). I think about it all the time...I am always coming up with questions. I'm trying not to drive my husband nuts with all my questions- Hamdullah he is patient and willing to explain everything to me.

I wish this process were easier. I wish I could just know what the right answer is. I feel guilty for even considering Islam-- like by doing so I am dishonoring Jesus. But have I been taught things about Jesus that were not true, thereby making these feeling completely unnecessary? And my mom is always asking me "You are not Muslim, right? You are still a Christian? You would never ever believe in a lie like that? You know the truth, honey! Islam is blashphemy." How would I explain it to her if I do find Islam to be true?

What is truth? Is it relative? There are some verses in the Qu'ran that say that God will reward the good deeds of Christians and Jews.... does this mean it is still OK to be Christian? Are my "bases covered"? Is it OK by Islam to be Christian, but better to be a Muslim?

It is hard for me to believe in a religion where so much of it is hear-say. Like the Hadith. Yes, perhaps the Prophet did say that, but maybe he didn't? How can you prove it? Isn't this kind of similar to the Bible, if you claim that the Bible is corrupted by humans? The Hadith were not recorded until long after the Prophet's death, just like the New Testament and Jesus. What is the difference? And if Muhammad was just a man, then why does what he said on his "free time" matter just as much as what he said when God was speaking directly to him (giving him the Qu'ran)?

This is giving me a headache! :-)